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SYIRAH n DEEZA dh slamat smpai kt KULIM...n aku plak dh selamat daftar form 6..well,dis is not what i want but dis is what i get..kata tokmama,ma,ba, "ni semua rezeki kkak..maybe ada yg lg baik waiting 4 u ahead." how i wish it would be true..FRUSTRATED..tu yg aku rase now..all yg aku dream all dis time lnsung x dapat..org cakap sabar,ni smua dugaan..tp tu lah,aku yg rasa smua ni...all family member mcm x pcaya aku x dpt..soalan wajib mesti "ASAL X DAPAT?" klau la ku tahu jawapan tu..if only i have d answer for that...aku rasa aku dh start lost hope..give up is the best perkataan for dis maybe...tp..i dun know..smua rasa dh mixed together smpai aku xleh nk explain pe yg aku rse now....

now,aku kliru lg..kali ni dgn keinginan aku n keinginan ma n ba...both nk aku amek pe yg dorang nk...well,dorang x paksa but dorang HARAP...tu yg aku lemah...papabear pn nk aku amek sastera gak..main aim : TESL...can i really get dat tesl thing? aku penat..letih...

now,aku totally rasa hopeless! i need some help...i miss my frens,aku pning ngn situation now n aku x suka ngan pe yg aku rse ni....aku need help..aku xnk let down ma n ba again...mybe pe yg they tell me btol..mybe aku ptut dengar pe yg papabear gtau aku kali ni..it's for my own good...yup..mybe sastera is for me...

why is it too hard for me to get what i want?